Procrastinating!!!

WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't I get my life together and finish school...I have an alright job, the pay could be much, much better but i love my co-workers. If it wasn't for them, i would've peaced-out long ago. I know i don't want to be sitting at this desk for the rest of my days but i can't seem to get it together to enroll and actually stay enrolled in school. I don't exactly know what i want to do with my life so that's a problem in itself. My freshman year in Toledo I was an Early Childhood Education major, but by the end of my first semester i knew it wasn't for me(by then children annoyed me and i don't think the school systems would've appreciated me whooping random children), but i continued with it for another 3 semesters. Then i switched to Interior Design, i dropped out after one of my sisters passed, i just couldn't do school(or life) @ the time. Now, I just can't get my legs under me to go back. My boo told me the other day that I'm b-sing and i really need to "get her done!". He has his whole life planned and is working a job he LOVES, he'll more than likely have it for the rest of his life. He's so lucky, i have no clue. I feel drained after thinking about this.

The interior design still interests me but do i want to do that forever? i dunno. I think i'm going for business(Tuition Reimbursement here i come!) until i can get it together. I need motivation, i feel like a true slacker. I was talking to my other sister about school earlier 2day and (she also didn't finish her degree by the way, what's wrong with us?) i told her how my uncle used to say every time i came into a room, "here's the girl that dropped out of college" as if my family didn't know who i was and he was introducing me. Everytime he said that i wanted to take his stupid hat off his head and throw it on the floor and C-Walk on it(lol). He brings out the worst in me!

I don't like school!
I just had an epiphany as i'm writing this, i don't like school. I know i have to do it though. Like i said i can't work here for ever.
Later!